ThE UnToLd StORy

shaz..naj..ana

2006-12-05T19:52:00.000+08:00

To the Le' Hoochies:Will you be my good friends till the end of time?

THIS DAY & AGE

2006-12-04T20:02:00.000+08:00

THIS DAY & AGE

-SLIDESHOW-

you were wrong about yesterday,
you never think before you speak and last year,
thinking you could be made for me.
she said, "some races can't be won"
and so we fade with the setting of the sun.
and airplanes always leave the ground
with confidence in safely coming down, unlike us,
we crashed and can't be found.

in the movies,
on the bigscreen
i'd make you mine.
if this were highschool or just homecoming,
we'd dance all night.

don't let that smile fade,
i wouldn't want to see you hurt like i am,
or keep the promises we made.
i know that this will come and go,
but she runs further,
further than she knows.
could i have shown more teeth when i smiled?
stood up straight when you called my name?
kissed you with my eyes closed?
i'm lost, i'll find my way. ...
this isn't highschool or homecoming,
let's say goodnight.

sundaes & the girls

2006-12-04T19:49:00.000+08:00

My Favourite Sinful Indulgence

Hot Fudge Sundae

Le' Hoochies [ismah..shaz..naj..ana]

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2006-12-03T21:39:00.000+08:00

i can't believe i am saying dis but i can finally sleep on my own bed than my sis bed.. for the past two weeks i have been sleeping on my sis bed.. wanna know why? cos i MISS my sis so much.. most of the times we like when i go to school my sis havent came back & when i reached home my sis have left for work.. reali do seh...

anyway yesterday went to esplanade with my dearest bestfren.. there's a lot of things i have disappointed her.. it's suppose to be our day out together but the msessages that i have received made her irritated & made her feel dat she is not important to me.. dont ever think dat way.. then my mom kept calling.. anyway yesterday's performance is from comicscript.. it's a ska band & then there's a lot of people moshing.. i think most of the audience sitting at the front are pissed off cos they cant watch a single thing while the kids are moshing.. haha.. it was funny.. anyway the girl can really sing man.. eventhough she looks like minareps but she can sing eh.. impressed seh.. i still wish i can sing like her.. hehe..

anyway exam reali comin man like whoa! so fast ah! and i havent start muggin eh.. tmr must start already..must reali2 start la! my hair can drop more as days goes by till exam ends seh..hehe

gtg... lovin u all!

52 questions & answers

2006-11-30T21:31:00.000+08:00

1) How old do you wish you were?
i wish i am 15 when the most precious & wonderful moments happened

2) Where were you when 9/11 happened?
at hm i think cos i remembered watching on the breaking news..

3) What do you do when vending machines steal your money?
swearing in my heart & sighing

4) Do you count yourself kind?
hmmm..yeay... of course ah...

5) If you had to get a tattoo, where would it be?hips?
shoulder? but nah.. against the religion..

6) If you could be fluent in any other language, what would it be?
tamil? since i know bits of mandarin... must be multi-language u know..

7) Do you know your neighbors?
yah..juz "hi" & "bye"

8) What do you consider a vacation?
no household chores, lots of shopping [like night markets in KL], having fun..

9) Do you follow your horoscope?
nope..juz read when it's there & that's it..

10) Would you move for the person you love?
don't think so..only when i got married la...

11) Are you touchy feely?
hmmm.. dunno eh...

12) Do you believe that opposites attract?
of course yo..

13) Dream job?
teacher but i realised i'm not good at teaching..

14) Favorite channel(s)?
none basically..only when i feel like turning it on la..

15) Favorite place to go on weekends?
esplanade, bugis starbucks & tong seng or raffles hospitals banquet..

16) Showers or Baths?
baths

17) Do you paint your nails?
no.. want to try someday..

18) Do you trust people easily?
yup but see whether dat people backstab me or not la.. once beaten twice shy..

19) What are your phobias?
the dark & a lot people..

20) Do you want kids?
yes pls..

21) Do you keep a handwritten journal?
haha.. only primary school..

22) Where would you rather be right now?
on my bed..

23) Who makes you feel warm and fuzzy?
indoor would be my big bolster..outdoor would be my cute bezfren, aishah..

24) Heavy or light sleeper?
somewhere in between?

25) Are you paranoid?
not really..

26) Are you impatient?
yup..depends on wat situation ah..

27) Who can you relate to?
my bezfren, aishah & my Le' Hoochies girls..

28) How do you feel about interracial couples?
why not? as long as they are happy..furthermore none of my business..

29) Have you been burned by love?
burned to wat extend?

30) What's your favorite pick-up line?
"ape ajer" or"macam paham"

31) What's your main ring tone on your mobile?
"beep"

32) What were you doing at midnight last night?
drooling on my bed?

33) What did the last text on your cellphone say?
msging my bezfren dat i have a headache

34) Whose bed did you sleep in last night?
my sis..she's always night duty so sleep on her bed to get rid of missing her..

35) What color shirt are you wearing?
my sec 2 class t-shirt baby blue

36) Most recent movie you watched?
step-up..watched twice..

37) Name three things you have on you at all times?
my cigarrette box which is my wallet [containing IC, EZ link, ATM card & cash], my handphone & my discman [my mp3 spoilt]

38) What color are your bed sheets?
brown..my fav colour..

39) How much cash do you have on you right now?
$10.75

40) What is your favorite part of the chicken?
thigh.. i love the shiny skin & flesh...

41) What's your favorite town/city?
in singapore..none..

42) I can't wait till...
i have a stable job...

43) What did you have for dinner last night?
chicken fried rice..

44) How tall are you barefoot?
152cm only..

45)Do you own a gun?
i love to..

46) What do you prefer to drink in the morning?
cold H2o..

47) Where do you think you'll be in 10 yrs?
dunno..still in singapore i think and if God-willing i'm married by then..

48) Last thing you ate?
roast almond cadbury chocolate..

49) What songs do you sing in the shower?
i dont sing while showering..

50) Last thing that made you laugh?
today and jokingly cry like "WAAAAAAA" with her mouth open wide..

51) Worst injury you've ever had?
sec 2 twisted my ankle.. took 3 months to completely heal..

52) Does someone have a crush on you?
i think so..dunno..

53) What's your favorite candy?
fancy gummy bears..

54) What song do you want played at your funeral?
prayers..

55) Five random people to do this! and why?
aishah - i want to but she's bz
ana - did it
shaz - did it
naj - but she dont have blog
anybody reading dis

meaning of every kiss

2006-11-28T10:35:00.000+08:00

Kiss on the hand >>> I adore you

Kiss on the cheek >>> I just want to be friends

Kiss on the neck >>> I want you

Kiss on the lips >>> I love you

Kiss on the ears >>> I am just playing

Kiss anywhere else >>> lets not get carried away

Look in your eyes >>> kiss me

Playing with your hair >>> I can't live without you

Hand on your waist I >>> love you to much to let you go

thinking........

2006-11-28T09:36:00.000+08:00

what i am thinking right now.......

missing someone..........

where to go dis wkend..........

where i am going to work during the one month holiday........

wishing dat i can talk with my best friend right now............

what to eat for lunch later...........

what to shop when i have not enough money...

i can meet my secondary school friends......

wishing dat i can go out with the Le' Hoochies.......

wishing dat i can be in my bed, snoring away like nobody's business.......

talk crap with my girls.......

why things are the way they are now......

what's gonna happen in the future.......

going to go to the ladies later....

have my new mp3 cos mine have spoilt yo..

can eat chocolate right not

get the hell out of dis room..

dats all folks!

during TPS lesson

2006-11-28T08:19:00.000+08:00

very bad of me when my classmates are presenting & here i am surfing the net, checking my unread mails and blogging.. but i cant help it la.. i am sleepy & the more i cant pay attention.. hehe.. to whoever presenting today & happens to read this i apologise ok? no hard feelings?

next wk is the study week and cant believe that exam is less than 2 wks time.. after one month holiday.. one month! i love it but i dont want to work at delifrance all day la.. want to find a lil bit more whereby the pay is once in two wks you know.. at least can buy something for myself rather than paying bills all the time.. haiz..

i think i gonna work hard and play hard before the attachment..

my mind is blok o duno wat to type so i think i gonna stop here ya.. love ya people..

someone.........

2006-11-27T23:46:00.000+08:00

just when you think you are down, someone......

1) is very proud of you

2) is thinking of you

3)cares about you

4)misses you

5)wants to talk to you

6)wants to talk to you

7)hopes you aren't in trouble

8)is thankful for the support you have provided

9)wants to hold your hand

10)hopes everything turns out all right

11)wants you to be happy

12)wants you to find them

13)is celebrating your successes

14)wants to give you a gift

15)think you ARE a gift

16)hopes you are not too cold, or too hot

17)wants to hug you

18)loves you

19)wants to lavish you with small gifts

20)admires your strength

21)is thinking of you and smiling

22)wants to be your shoulder to cry on

23)wants to go out with you and have a lot of fun

24)thinks the world of you

25)wants to protect you

26)would do anything for you

27)wants to be forgiven

28)is grateful for your forgiveness

29)wants to laugh with you about old times

30)remembers you and wishes you were there

31)needs to know that your love is unconditional

32)values your advice

33)wants to tell you how much they care

34)wants to stay up watching old movies with you

35)wants to share their dreams with you

36)wants to hold you in their arms

37)wants YOU to hold them in your arms

38)treasures your spirit

39)wishes they could STOP time because of you

40)can't wait to see you

41)wishes that things didn't have to change

42)loves you for who you are

43)loves the way you make them feel

44)wants to be with you

45)hears a song that reminds them of you

46)wants you to know they are there for you

47)is glad that you're their friend

48)wants to be your friend
49)stayed up all night thinking about you

50)is alive because of you

51)is wishing that you would notice them

52)wants to get to know you better

53)believes that you are their soul mate

54)wants to be near you

55)misses your guidance and advice

56)values your guidance and advice

57)has faith in you

58)trusts you

59)needs you to send them this letter

60)needs your support

61)needs you to have faith in them

62)needs you to let them be your friend

63)will cry when they read this

2006-11-24T22:43:00.000+08:00

My bleeding coronary,

The mind in confusion,

Days past brown eyes teary,

Full of anger & frustration.

Words that we preached,

Cannot be fulfilled,

Times that we have reach,

For the ties to unhitch.

Blocked with cement wall,

Inside an empty hall,

Eventhough you're near,

Seems you're far back rear.

Please encode in memory,

You won't be deleted, truely.

**something i compose on my own....

HOW BAD IS YOUR TEMPER ACCORDING TO YOUR HOROSCOPE

2006-11-24T22:27:00.000+08:00

ARIES MARCH 21 – APRIL 20
Nothing seems to ruffle you more than a lack of discipline, disloyalty and decorum. But Arians are also known to go into a rage very easily when challenged. Those of you who have been on the receiving end of the Aries temper know that if not calmed down they can even get violent. But one thing is certain if the opponent remains calm and does not react to their outburst, Arians cool down very fast. They are also the first to apologise, which makes them easier to forgive.

TAURUS APRIL 21 – MAY 20
You are generally quiet and have control over your emotions. It is difficult to predict what will upset you, so when you do lose your cool, people don’t know how to react. Your temper is like that of a raging bull, and anyone trying to pacify you will be the first one to get a verbal bashing. You generally get upset when you are concerned or when people accuse you of doing something wrong. You also hate being reminded about mistakes you’ve made in the past. You also have the potential to be terribly vindictive if rubbed the wrong way.

GEMINI MAY 21 – June 29
You are recognised by your cheerful disposition and your jovial nature is easily susceptible to anger. In fact, you are the best person to have around when there is an ugly scene at a party you can bring the warring factions together quite diplomatically. But when you lose cool, you yell and scream and will not listen to reason. You must have the last word in a wordy duel. Your capacity to argue aggressively is matched only by your seductive charm.

CANCER JUNE 21 – JULY 21
Considering how charming, caring and kind you are, you dislike unpleasant scenes, much less creating one yourself. You have great tolerance and rarely get provoked into losing your temper. If someone is unreasonable or trying to create trouble, you are more likely to walk away quietly. But that does not mean you do not have a temper. When angry, in your effort to control your emotions, you tremble, your hands get sweaty and sometimes you fumble for words. Tears roll down your eyes easily and the opponent is touched by your innocence and will seek an apology immediately.

LEO JULY 22 – AUGUST 21
If anyone has total control over their emotions, it is you. But then, you can be described as stiff, cold and uncaring. You are known to lack spontaneity but you really don’t care about opinions. You don’t like to create scenes and will never accept invitations to a party where you suspect the presence of an unruly lot. But your very presence seems challenging to some and they take vicarious pleasure in your disquiet. When angry you can use critical language. A dressingdown can humiliate your opponent, causing a strain between both of you forever.

VIRGO AUGUST 22 – SEPTEMBER 21
Most of you are gentle and have full control over your emotions but those of you given to temper tantrums can certainly get violent. When see things with rage, you yell and shout and tend to break things lying close at hand. You can even harm yourself by banging your hands on a glass top table or wall. You should never get into any argument, for you are a sore loser. You feel that others are trying to persecute you and don’t quite respect your opinions. When hurt, you can also hold grudges forever.

LIBRA SEPTEMBER 22 – OCTOBER 22
Did someone say that you are the charmers of the zodiac? Well, it’s true. Few have ever seen you ruffled or angry. You are very conscious of your image, and you believe that anger distorts your face and personality. You also think you are above things like anger. But wait before you get into self-congratulatory mood. Your family or those very close to you know you better. You have an unmatched temper amongst all the zodiac signs, and what makes it worse is your capacity to justify it.

SCORPIO OCTOBER 23 – NOVEMBER 21
Of course you don’t lose your cool. But your very demeanour (manner) projects hauhtiness (arrogance, pride), pride and grand disdain (disregard) for lesser mortals (human). Others are often found saying that anger sits on your nose and you are raring to give your piece mind to the first person who try to be funny with you. You are selective in the choice of your friends, and have a low tolerance for the superflous (extra) types. Your tongue-lashing (attack) is generally in a soft hissing tone for when you scream, your voice tends to get shrill and loud and you do hate drawing attention to yourself! When upset, you are angrier with yourself for having shown weakness, for the last thing that Scorpio wants to show is being out of control.

SAGITTARIUS NOVEMBER 22 – DECEMBER 20
You are insensible and generally have no complete control over your emotions. You do get angry quickly and others marvel at your anger levels even when provoked. Actually, you get tongue-tied when angry and you will remove your anger waiting for the other person to calm down. Then you will reason with your opponent and convince the other person in a very gentle manner that the whole thing was just his mistake. You’re also likely to totally sever ties with someone when you’re upset with them.

CAPRICORN DECEMBER 21 – JANUARY 19
Few will believe that a hardcore practical and materialistic person like you is capable of sensitivity and genuine emotions. You project a hard exterior but are actually very sensitive, a trait you successfully hide from others. You can see thing with anger but will not betray your feelings. But then, there are times that even you cannot control your temper. Under such circumstances you can shout and scream, more with frustration at the situation than with anger at any particular person. Your outbursts can shock others and can make them feel guilty too.

AQUARIUS JANUARY 20 – FEBRUARY 18
You are noble and kind and dislike losing control over yur emotions. It is very rare for you to get angry. You are also the pacifier in situations that involve arguments. It is always your endeavour to be perfect and socially correct in your behaviour and attitude, but if misunderstood and slighted you can give in to an angry outburst. You will shout and scream and then walk out from the scene. You cannot easily forget the situation and will be bitter about it for a long time.

PISCES FEBRUARY 19 – MARCH 20
The only thing that can be said about you dreamers is that you appear even more attractive when angry. You are very sensitive to others’ feelings, so you rarely hurt them. But when others tend to hurt you, then things take a nasty turn. You will yell and use harsh words and feel inclined to shake everything and everyone up. Your creative imagination is at its best when angry, and you tend to get pretty dramatic. When upset, you refuse to listen to reason and wish to be left alone. But once you calm down, you repent your tantrums and seek forgiveness. SO nobody can be upset with you for too long.

school!

2006-11-20T21:17:00.000+08:00

can't believe that skool is getting over soon.. EXAMS! haiz that's the last thing that i wanna do but look on the bright side it's the last exam that we gonna have..a lot of things happen during the times 2 yrs.. made new frens and got separated & finally not close friens become close frens..

but let me make things clear from the bottom of my heart.. during dis 2 yrs, the peole in my class r very nice people.. eventhough i'm not close wif them but i have the time to laugh with them.. i'm reali thankful for dat.. also, whoever i mix around with in JR0504C, there's no infuences at all.. watever i felt or feel comes from within me and none comes from my frens who i mixes wif.. there's no circumstances dat i'm under influences at all.. i have my reasons for feeling dat way & it's my right.. however, i dont have any grudges or revenges to whoever i feeling now & then.. "they" r juz a classmate not my frens and i dont hate them for watver things dat that person did..

the sweetest things dat happen to me is having 3 beautiful girls by my side and these 3 girls are the best thing that have ever happen to me.. not only dat we have our ups & downs together and the ups, we laugh abt it & the downs, we cried abt it.. havent been feeling dis way since sec school..& naj, she is the clesest to me ever eventhough sometimes her mood swings are untolerable.. but she's still the best person.. who would want to wait for a fren to rebond her hair for 4 hrs? Naj have dont dat to me.. she actually waited more than 4 hrs..

anyway, projects are reali pain in the butt.. it's so ripped off our brain.. GoSH! haha..

what's wrong wif me today?

2006-11-08T20:48:00.000+08:00

i am alone rite now in my room.. my sis have been working nite duties again & again.. wonder will i be like dat when i enter the real world of working.. i think i juz miss her.. when i came back from skool i only see her like less than half an hr..

anyway oncology class today is ok la.. there's external speaker.. a little bit of exaggeration on his lecture part but i did however learn something out of it.. kind of depressing also have la.. actually have been in deep thoughts lately when i'm in my own world in class & at home.. few days ago my lecturer the beautiful Miss Joanna Tang she showed to us a mail dat she received abt you can choose to have a good day or bad day.. it all starts the time when you wake up whether you choose to be in a gd mood or a bad mood.. i think dat more or less teach me something... like today, he talked abt GRIEF.. it's a vague topic but from his experiences in real life it's something to be learn.. he told a story abt when a person is confiding & he/she keeps on repeating to talk abt the same thing, don't ignore but to ask further cos there's something dat he'she wants to say further but scared to tell.. haha.. i'm bein emo? no la! i think i'm bein like makcik2.. hehe

but really the people around me really teach me something abt life.. i think from these people, they taught me to think maturely.. i think so la! but i'm really blessed to have my good friends like ana, shaz & naj.. we called ourself LE HOOCHIES! & not only dat we have japanese names.. cool tk? ana-saiko, shaz-saiki, naj-saika & me-saiku.. sounds like kena sai but i lorve it.. really, each day they made my day whether merepeks or not i dont care..& i cant wait to go out with them one day..

without realising, school is ending and soon we're gonna be havin our attachment and by then we wont be seein each other much.. i still hope dat LE HOOCHIES wont fade yah.. time passed really fast.. the 1st thing you know you hate goin to skool but as time passed and skool is ending, you'll realised how you enjoy goin to skool each day although you weren't close to some of your classmates.. ok i have to stop bein emo la eh..

take care beautiful peeps..

sunday at home

2006-11-05T11:32:00.000+08:00

today is the 13th day of HARI RAYA and here i am nothing to do at hm.. not working.. it's only almost half the day but here i am bored at home.. feel like goin out but nowhere to go... boring la.. forgot to wish first of all SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI MAAF ZAHIR & BATIN.. haha.. belated wish ah.. i stop here for awhile cos my mind is blank at the moment.. c ya...

MISSING THE GIRLS

2006-08-27T20:34:00.003+08:00

HELLO HELLO HELLO! been a long time not updating.. haha.. been very bz.. attachment and work.. sori ana not dat i didnt want to go out on dat sat but i was workin.. anyway i am missing wonderful peeps like ana and shaz.. didnt meet them for quite some time already.. i've been bumpin to sara in NUH but still missing her.. i've been seeing her almost all the time so didnt miss her at all.. ANA I'M GOIN TO YOUR CHALET! I PROMISE! hehe.. took an early knock off dis sat from work juz for you girl.. been disappointing u all dis while cos of work but dis time i promise okie..

anyway dis tues is my 1st night duty and dis wk is the last wk in NUH.. ant's believe dat 6 wks have pass so fast.. i wonder how my night duty is gonna be like.. last wk the senior AN and the SN have been talking to me abt their encounters while on their night duty as a student nurse and as a full time nurse.. hearing abt it made me a little bit scared but at the same time curious and nervous.. but it will be exciting to experience diff types of things.. juz pray dat nothing happens..

today after work i was sitting wif aishah n my work fren.. suddenly dis customer sit behind us and trying to befriend wif us.. few minutes knowing us she called aishah n asked whether she have money to borrow cos she claimed dat her relative in batam passed away.. aishah said she dont have but the customer asked aishah to ask anyone who can borrow her money.. i mean u dont have money but u dine in at delifrance.. who u tryin to kid.. i was so pissed off.. then the customer said to me not to be rough when i talk.. try to smile more cos i lookes sweet when i smile.. what the f**k.. she only talked to us for like few minutes n there she was judging me.. i dont even know which planet she came from..i am still pissed off abt wat happened.. she dont even know who i am n there she was judging me.. want to borrow money some more.. aishah said all of us are student n we dont have money.. luckily she said like dat.. haiz.. wats happening to dis world..

anyway for those who is goin to ana's chalet see u on the 2nd.. those who arent see u when skool reopens.. miss u GIRLS (ana, shaz, sara, yanti, sania & naj)

grandmother story

2006-07-09T20:33:00.000+08:00

just came back from work.. tired la although not many people today.. anyway alon i got ur msg and sori to say dat i couldn't gp tp the seoul garden trip cos it's my uncle wedding at my place.. if his place i can escape but it's at my house.. and guys i couldnt even go to the nurses day celebration cos my uncle actual wedding day is o n dat day itself.. sori yah.. ana, i'm sori dat i couldn't follow to the sentosa cos i'm workin..dis is my life.. if i'm not schooling i work.. it's been like dat since i'm 16 yrs old.. my parents do give me money which is allowance and bus and train fares.. other than that i have to do it my own.. whatever i want to buy i have to use my own money.. dats y i have to work and have to pay my own bill.. haha.. telling grandmother story.. sori if it bored u.. but whatever it is i will try my very best to follow every single trip that is coming right up ok.. take care..

all summed up

2006-07-08T23:14:00.000+08:00

sori for not updating..lazy to lay my fingers on the keyboard so here i am juz finishing my revamping of skins.. there's a lot of things in my head dat i wanna keep typing here..

today..
watched mistress of spice..aishwara rai (is dat her name was spelt?) is very beautiful la.. the movie rate i would give 7/10.. my fren said the romeo in dis movie doesn't suits her at all.. haha.. i find it ok la.. ate waffle ice-cream at gelare.. yum yum..

yesterday..
went to pulau ubin wif my classmates.. half of them actually.. tk sporting la yg lain.. some didnt go for valid reasons so understandable but i think if they were there it would be more fun.. many things happen.. it burn my fats ok after hours of cycling of upslope to downslope.. i have souvenirs from the trip which is the mosquitoes bites.. we got LOST when we want to return back from the beach.. the trip was reali an eye opener for me cos it's my 1st time there.. when i woke up today my body was aching really bad; the shoulder, thighs and most importantly my butt.. it really does.. oh ya we had-a-day-new-classmate whose name is emily.. haha.. hey guys i'm really glad that we made dat trip..it really like a sense of accomplishment..

recently..
many things happen in skool..EXAMS..didn't really study for it..bio science studied 3 days before the actual exam.. PCA studied the day itself..if i didnt do well in the exam i am not surprise at all cos it's my fault..FRIENDS.. a lot of controversy going on but i wanna tell abt mine.. somebody said i CONTROL my close fren in the class whose name is NAJ.. please la i'm not even naj's boyfriend or partner to control her..in my 19 years of living i never control my frens.. why would i want to control naj.. dat somebody also said when i go home wif my bezfren i forget abt naj and when i didn't go home wif my bezfren i look for naj..not only dat, dat somebody said i dont let naj go home wif dat somebody whenever dat somebody want to go home wif naj.. naj have the right to go home with whoever she wants la ok.. btw dat somebody said i am a lesbian cos my bezfren looks like a butch.. do lesbians talk abt guys? if i am a lesbian i don't talk about guys in skool wif the rest of the girls.. i am juz mad dat dat somebody made story abt me when i didn't interfere in her life..to dat somebody: aku tk kacau kau, kau jgn kacau aku!

1st semester of the 2nd year have almost passed.. i'm glad i made frens like ana, shaz, sara, yanti, sania and the rest excluding dat somebody... although i am not as close to them as i am wif naj, more or less they teach me the meaning of life.. and i have no regrets at all to have frens like them.. it's really have been an eye-openener for me.. love ya all except dat somebody..

1st initial, month and zodiac

2006-01-24T20:17:00.000+08:00

i surf the net almost everyday but seldon check my mail but when i check my mail today i read something interesting which is about the meaning of your 1st alphabet in your name and your zodiaz and the month u r born.. i guess there are some truth in it but i dunno.. i guess it's just interesting to me..hehe..here it is..

the alphabet is my 1st name and my second name..

Does your name begin with: N
You are emotional and intense. When involved in a relationship, you Throw your entire being into it. Nothing stops you; there are no holds barred. You are all-consuming and crave someone who is equally passionate and intense. You believe in total freedom. You are willing to try anything and everything. Your supply of energy is inexhaustible. You want to be pampered and know how to pamper your mate. You also enjoy mothering your mate. You often have the greatest love affairs all by yourself, in your head. You are very imaginative.

Does your name begin with: I
You have a great need to be loved, appreciated... even worshiped. You enjoy luxury, sensuality, and pleasures of the flesh. You like necking spend hours just touching feeling & exploring. You look for lovers who know what they are doing. You are not interested in an amateur, unless that amateur wants a tutor.You are fussy and exacting about having your desires satisfied. You are willing to experiment and try new modes of expression. You bore easily and thus requirea dventure and change. Your commitments don't last very long & you often tend to stray. Loyalty is not one of your strong points. You are more sensual than sexual, but you are sometimes down right lustful.

the month i was born..

JANUARY
Ambitious and serious
Loves to teach and be taught
Always looking at people's flaws and weaknesses
Likes to criticize
Hardworking and productive
Smart, neat and organised
Sensitive and has deep thoughts
Knows how to make others happy
Quiet unless excited or tensed
Rather reserved
Highly attentive
Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds
Romantic but has difficulties expressing love
Loves children
Loyal
Needs to improve social abilities
Easily jealous

my zodiac

Capricorn

Turn ons

Capricorn are strong and dependable hence if you want to put your money on anyone it is of course this zodiac sign no matter how many difficulties (that incidentally are many) The goat has to undertake to achieve the goals. They are practical and conservative in their outlook and they expect you to blend in their color. They set certain standards for themselves in their life and they will always try to maintain those standards. For them social status and image is very important in life.

Turn offs

Do not expect a Capricorn mate to open their heart and pour everything to you. They are very secretive and reserved people. They are very thorough in all their affairs and hate any kind of sloppiness. Capricorn is very tightfisted and economical. Do not expect lavish gifts from them and if they do give you anygift (that is very rare) it will have some practical use (no romance please) but that does not mean you will be deprived of anything on the contrary you will bewell provided.

really sleepy and knocked myself

2006-01-23T23:03:00.000+08:00

i'm really sleepy today until i knocked in the train on the way home..for the first time after so long i went home early..haha.. proud of myself.. anyway exam today really hmm.. how should i describe.. i didn't study yet i write ehatever i could..i write whatever the teacher said during lesson..hehe.. after the exam planned with naj to go to study at expo but i was too sleepy and tired that at 1 i want to go home..i only study few page for the next paper, behavioural science.. in the train my head is like a hangng skeleton cos i'm really sleepy.. after so long, i went to shop and save to buy campbells soup..hehe.. bought cream of chicken and eat it all by myself..hehe.. anyway tomorrow no skool but i think ireally have to do revision.. hehe.. hope so.. that's all.. haha.. peace people and study hard.. after wednesday, time to party.. hehe.. muacks..

team spirit

2006-01-20T21:07:00.000+08:00

wake up dis morning and my body all aching especially my hands cos of yesterdays high element.. fun though.. tiring but u never know the team spirit that we have yesterday just overwhelms me.. except for those 2 or 3 people who not participating.. but hey it's ok.. all it matters are 95% of the class took part and i loved it.. hip hip hooray.. hehe..

anyway think gonna go esplanade again tmr after work.. after watching the performance at esplanade last saturday it made me amazed.. hope tmr there's interesting performance..

exam is in ard 3 more days time but i'm not 100% prepared..only ard 1%..hehe.. didnt really study and to tell you the truth i slacked dis term.. slept most of the time during class..

my hands are too tired to type rite now.. take care peeps.. love ya..

p/s: to my frens who have prob and need someone to talk to juz call me..ur prob never been a bother to me.. even if i couldnt help at least it could relief ur chest..take care..

is my friend a sabotager?

2006-01-16T19:27:00.000+08:00

ok so yesterday was tiring day for me.. i worked for like 14 n half hrs and all this thanks to my very good friend..

yesterday at work really a f****ing day ah cos there's this damn stuck up customer who thinks she is the queen of singapore..go to hell with you..cant take it i cried at work..and then there's this friend who was suppose to work but somehow her name was cancelled but she came to work anyway..there was a lot of staff in the morning but not for the night shift..she said n promised that if she stop working at 11 am then she would come back to help at 5 since there's not enough staff..my manager was really hoping that she would come and so do i..some more yesterday was counting stock day..somehow or rather at 5 she didnt turn up and when i msged her she said "jap..aku ade prob" (wait..i have a prob) we waited n waited and i keep saying to my manager that she will turn up and i keep telling myself dat she will turn up..we waited until 7 dat she didnt turned up..she sabotagd us and dissapointed me..the whole morning she said she have no mood to work..DON'T MAKE PROMISES IF YOU CAN'T KEEP LAH! i'm not trying to say i am good but no matter what problem i have i would come to work because in my head i have made a promised to my friends that i would help..unless i am very sick then i would CALL to say i can't come..i don't sabotaged my friends cos i know the feeling of working not enough staff..

to her:
you promised to help but you didn't turned up..this is not the first time that you didn't turn up.. if you can't come why didn't you call?i msged you for the second time but you didn't reply..what is all this..you made us wait and wait..i dunno what your problem is but can't you just msg me.. don't keep sabotaging us..do you know the feeling when someone keep asking where you are and i keep saying she will be here..it's simple why can't you just call so that we keep on waiting for you..WHAT THE HELL?!!!!!! if i know things turned out this way i wouldn't have recommended you the job..you keep doing this means you embarrassed me also..THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR YESTERDAY..

i closed the counter all by myself yesterday cos the baker count his stock, my manager count stock also whick left only another girl and me..the other girl was doing washing an di left all alone doing the counter..but i was proud of myself cos despite closing all by myself, i managed to finish closing the counter by 10.30pm..i left mopping and sweeping to the others cos i have to go home early yesterday..luckily my mom let me continue work yesterday..thank you MOM!

should it be misunderstood?

2006-01-16T00:30:00.000+08:00

ok let me ask u somethin..

would u be misunderstood if u walk with someone who is a girl but walks n dressed like a guy but actually that person is not a les?

at first u would but if u look into the matter n find out what really is going on would you still think in another way?

i dunno how to put it in words..

ok here goes..
i have a friend who is "who-is-a-girl-but-dress-like-a-guy"..easy said she is a tomboy..y is there discrimination against them..n to tell u frankly she is my best friend name aishah..she is always there when i need someone to talk to when i'm feeling troubled and she always there to give me sensible advice..she mayb 21 but hey she is much2 matured than those who are 25 or 26.. she knows the feeling of hardship and everytime she was sabotaged, she doesnt even take revenge or anything..i admire her strength, determination and of course her courage..she is only 21 going on 22 soon and she is already a manager..whenever i work with her, she is the one who calms me down n to tell u the truth, she knows me better than anyone else..i have a best friend before aishah but i dunno where she is now..mayb wat can misunderstood us is i always contact her n go out with her but would dat make us les? she is my best friend for god sake..

to those people:
aishah n i are just best friends..don ever misunderstood us when u see us together..u dunno a thing abt me..

ok so yesterday i was busted by my bro cos he saw me n aishah at lot 1..so what..she is my best friend..is it a crime to go out with someone who doesnt dress ladylike? do u know dat even 2 girls who dress ladylike can be les? u dunno anything abt me bro..she is someone who i wan to make my friendship with everlasting..even after i got married she will always be my friend.. always..u havent see her wearing tudung..think what u wan to think..

my birthday surprise

2006-01-06T23:55:00.001+08:00

in skool today in cafe 1 after cnpr..
anam i think u n i have the same taste..
hehe..
cute! cute! cute!
haha..thanks naj n faezah for the birthday present..
i love it n naj don wori abt the ear ring k..
anyway went out today..
went to swensen..
haha..cant believe i have a surprise there..
after eating our meals, aishah said she she wnts to talk to the manager abt whether there's a job there..
but suddenly there's people wif ice-cream n a candle in the middle n the people sang for me..
hehe..how sweet rite..
then the manager came n told us dat the ice-cream is complimentary n gave me a balloon..
but sadly, when i was holding the balloon it burst..
everybody was like lookin..
hehe..i was so embarrassed dat my face turned red..
but aishah n i was laughing..
my best fren ever..
gosh!
had a great day..

sleepy n tiring

2006-01-05T20:46:00.000+08:00

today..
wat can i say abt today..
hmm..
nothing much actually..
feeling very sleepy the whole day..
basically feeling sleepy almost everyday..
well..today there cmsk & s&w..
cmsk kinda sucky..
s&w very tiring after 2 wks not working out..
after dat sat at the food stadium cos we know dat it will be packed in the toilet..
we sat at the staff place there where there's pink colour couch..
then unrealised, ana, erin and i fall asleep till almost 5..
except for najj who is xtra, she didn't fall asleep..
lepak..gerek..
haha..
during break time we watched dis hantu trailer at fatin's laptop..
kinda scary..urgh!
anyway met mom on the way back home at mrt cck..
went to lot 1 for dinner..
ate beef hor fun..YUM YUM! *saliva abt to drool*
haha.. the taste still in my mouth..
anyway..dats all for now..
chiaows..

personal, work, skool

2006-01-03T22:17:00.000+08:00

my life has been different lately..

WORK:
to think dat my best friend is going to quit made me upset..
it's all because of my store manager..
her anger causes everybody to wonder wat is wrong with her..
for the two days she came with her black face n little small thing dat she is unhappy abt. she will throw rhings to throw tantrum..
it made lufe miserable for people esp my bez fren cos she is the assisstant manager..
but things got better sun evening after my store manager talk to me n when she talked to my best fren..

SKOOL:
at skool things just seems to be boring with the teacher who just loves to drag till i've been sleeping in class quite a lot lately..
do i have sleeping disorder?
hmm..
someone pls tell me..
hehe..
but the people are as crazy as ever..
frenship..
guess i have no prob abt dat in skool..
all the while i was with naj..
no prob with her..
all my happiness n unhappiness she is the only one in skool i tell..
no backstabbing n all dat,,
i ok with everybody i guess..
if not i sori for being one..
i hate all the"she-did-dis-she-did-dat"
to me it's kind of childish..
to hear dat sometimes is ok but not all the time..
is sickening to the brain i tell u..
come on grow up..

PERSONAL ISSUE:
since it's personal no pint in typing,,
hahahahahahahahaha..
nuts!

hmm..
guess dats all..watching csi miami rite now..cool..
gtg..
adios senoritas n amigos..
hehe..
nite..

my advance birthday pressie

2005-12-28T21:19:00.000+08:00

i just came back from skool..
went out for awhile just now..
guess wat?! i have my 1st birthday present today..
early huh? yah..
my bez fren so sweet..
she bought my favourite cadbury and van houtten chocolate for me..
and a watch..
ADDIDAS WATCH..HEHE..
yah..
cool huh?
she's is my best fren ever..
always been there when i need someone..
thank god for meetin such person like her..
dats not all..
she gave me van houtten n cadbury chocolates..
MY FAVOURITE!!!
hehe..
guess dats all for now..

bored......sleepy......

2005-12-21T20:50:00.000+08:00

time: 2050hr

chatting wif my fren rite now at msn..
waiting for my bez buddy to call rite now but she's bz..
always tell her how i felt, all my ups n down..
thanks for being there when i need someone the most..

i'm bored & sleepy but i can't sleep..
pissed off rite now at my mom cos she's nagging..
but i understand y..
naughty me..
my bed is in a mess..
like karang guni place..
i think karang guni's place neater.. hehe..

skool..
as for now OK i guess..
juz dat most of the teacher on leave..
kind of bored..
teaching method different..
i miss those teacher whose teaching method are good

i dunno wat else to say..gonna wrap up now..
adios amigos aku berambus lagi bagus..
hehe..
love ya people loads..

is it..

2005-12-15T19:57:00.000+08:00

IN SKOOL:

Lessons - communication skills is boring..
don't see a point why we have communication skill.
nursing studies theory.
bored but ok..
do research in the library but managed to skive..
Sports & Wellness.
Fun, Fun, Fun.
Played badminton after so long..
COOL!
did some hardcore conditioning till my back hurts.

FEELINGS - start of the day is ok.
middle of the day sucks.
later of the day, cool cos of S&W.
tiring but full of satisfaction.

wat made me cry - "so i guess dis is the ending or a beautiful mistake. n if we both agree dat we shouldn't be together why does it hurt so much? i feel like i lost my closest friend. i don't want to fall asleep alone, but i do want to wake up with you. i hope you're happy n completely lonely. i'm only trying to be honest."

wat does it mean - you don't have to know cos nobody knows. only me and Allah. Let it be the secret which i don't want to talk to anybody. don't wan it to be a burden to people.

work - been very bz lately but managed to handle.

friends - OK! still as crazy as ever.
Love them loads.

my heart - wat does it have to say???
hurtful yet happy.
got it?
it's ok.
let it say to me alone.

as what as my frens said today: "Beauty Lies on the hands of a beholder"

LIVE YOUR DREAM

2005-09-01T00:36:00.000+08:00

here's the chance of live,
get ready, set fly,
high above the fear of your mind,
go for it it's hit or miss.
To late for you to quit,
You gotta show them how bad you really want this
ohhhhh

..*[Chorus]*..
Live your dreams, it's not as hard as it may seem.
You gotta work to get the cream
On your hope's you must lean,
from your fears you have to win yourself
It's all or nothing , give your everything

Are what you believe, you got to bring the heat,
Set the pace competition ,take the lead
This is it, all eyes on you,
So stay on point and prove,
That you deserve what's long overdue

repeat ..*[Chorus]*..

My heart is still recovering ,
from the hartbreack of another kind
I'm still drying my tears,
Getting over my own fears,
In my life, how I wanna make sure this time,
that i'm strong enough,
Have to give it my all

repeat..*[Chorus]*..

ohhhh ohhhh ohhh ohhhhh yeahhh ohhhh ......

****Live your dreams****

repeat..*[Chorus]*..

..*[repeat]*..

you know you got to live your dreams,
so don't you be afraid ,
just set a pace and take the lead,
it's your turn to shine...

skool n work

2005-08-13T01:17:00.000+08:00

here i am at 0020 am updating my blog..
i have my phase test tomorrow n have to be in skool by 7.45 am but i haven't sleep yet..
juz to let u know phase test is my nursing practical test..
well i had my test today 12082005 which includes in the module..
i think i did fairly but may not be as good as my 1st..
didn't really study for it..
went to bugis after skool straight away to buy mp3 coz my discman spoilt already..
decided to buy mp3.. excited u know till didn't study b4 the test..
my exam in on 22nd and 24th august..then i'm on vacation.. 1 wk only..
after that go for attachment..

after the test went to work straight away..
learn few things..
the prob is have to memorise the drinks..
i have short memories so i have to write it down juz now in my book..
it's COOL to learn new things..
acquire new skills..
dats the fun part of workin..
have fun together but at the same time do our job properly..

think dats all dat i have to say..
before i say nothing at all juz wanna say sweet dreams to all the lovely people..
n J'ADORE [it means "i love you" in french]

my apologies

2005-08-09T21:24:00.000+08:00

i would like to apologies to NUR HASYIMAH BTE ABDUL GHANI for not turning up for the reunion n celebration of her brithdate.. it's not intentionally that i don't want to turn up.. it's juz dat i need to have a date with the doctor so dat he can take a look at my sexy leg.. (phew! yucks!) dat is all to my dear good friend..

secondly to my dear other friends.. i know u miss me too much (y i am so self-praise today?) juz to let u guys know i miss u too.. sorry for the iconvenience caused..

dats all for my dear friends..

overprotectiveness.. does it really help?

2005-08-07T20:46:00.000+08:00

wat i'm going to talk abt is going to be boring but i don't care..

i need to let it out..

the qn is.. overprotectiveness, does it really help?

my answer is NO one way or another.

it's annoying, frustrating n pressurising.. get off me..

athough many people said i know how to take care by myself n many didn't abide by wat they promised, i'm not like them.

overprotectiveness can cause harm one way or another..

1st, they can be too pressured dat they can't take it..

2ndly, it's not the way to solve the prob..

lastly, if they got the chance they'll try every way to get wat they want eventhough

they are overprotected..

i know i'm talking crap rite now but dis is wat i'm facing.. being too overprotected.. it's so pressurising dat i can't take it.. esp by my bro.. claiming dat he don't want me to do the things dat other teenagers did..i'm not like them.. y can't u juz give me the chance to show dat i'm not like THEM..i don't want to be like them.. it's hard for me to take it do u know dat.. i need some space.. if u think being a smallest sibling is easy, think again.. u don't know what i'm facing rite now.. yah, they are trying to protect me n i don't mind with dat but pls not too overprotective.. if u said it once i'll listen but not too many times..it's annoying..it's like a pest disturbing the humans..wanting to know who i talking to, abt wat...is dat necessary..

i'm 18 not 8 yrs old..i know they might say so wat if u r 18? does dat makes u free to do watever u please? i'm not doing watever i please.. i know how to take care myself especially doing the things dat destroy myself which is doing sex.. i'm scared to hear dat many of my friend's friends are pregnant rite now n their boyfriend left them..i'm scared but don't overprotect me pls..

dats all i haf 2 say..take care ppl n don't let overprotectiveness destroy u.. ciao!

updated..

2005-08-07T01:04:00.000+08:00

sori to those waiting for my updates..

currently my life is full of ups and downs..

guess dis are challenges for me to face..

here it goes.........

handling all the stress for the upcoming exams n next mth going for my 1st attachment..

something cannot escape abt skool..

frens..

guess dis is all human nature..

emotionally unstable..

mayb due to peer pressure n studies..

the journey to skool n the waking time..

it's a routine..

home..

there it goes again..

the protectiveness..

well yah for my own good..

seoul garden..

work like shit but little pay..

schedule didn't get wat i want..

got my new job at delifrance bugis..

hourly rate lower than wat i used to get..

but wat the heck..

there's double pay, overtime n wat u asked is wat u get (schedule)..

bike..

been going for my prac n doing well..

injuries here n there but part of the challenge..

watever on my way i'm taking it slow n handling it one at a time..

most importantly i thank ALLAH for letting me face dis experience eventhough sometimes i feel like giving up..

HE taught me the maturity of life n letting me meet diff type of people..

THANK U to the one dat has always been there for me through my darkest time..

when i feel totally alone n scared..

to the people dat i haven't meet for quite a long time like YANA, SYIMAH, MIDA, SHAHIRA, AISHAH, AIN, BUDI, YAZID, ABG ADAM n many more juz to let u know u have not been forgotten.. keep in touch..

me wif my fren

2005-03-31T20:13:00.000+08:00

here i am at the macdonald wif my good friend yunus aka tom( HELLO!!!) borrowing his lap top to update my blog..haha..basically i have nothing to say much lah actually..oh yah ok2 i enrolled for motorcycle license today..hehe..finally..very excited abt it..still got long way to go..and i am quite nervous abt my nursing application..dunno whether i am fully acceptred or not..hopefully dat i got it..ermm..haven't heard abt my secondary school friends..so if u're reading dis tag me to update abt urself yah..ok dunno wat to write anymore..still missing and loving you people.. lastly REMEMBER ME THE WAY YOU KNOW ME COZ I'M STILL THE SAME.. =) take care and smile always..i'll always pray for your happiness and health..

got to update...finally

2005-03-25T21:51:00.000+08:00

sori for not updating for quite sumtime..as u know my internet is down..haha..okok.. basically i passed my o level except my maths..hehe..it's hard to get the course dat i like in poly.. so i applied to ite.. i passed my interview and going to ite simei nitec nursing.. hehe..finally.. yah..hehe..abt work..hmmmmmm...dun wanna talk abt it..kinda suck actually..oh yah..my ahmad aka steve went to ns..felt like i've lost bro..i miss him calling me alia sayang.. i think i stop here for now..juz wanna say i miss my friends at bp and love u guys as well as i love my punkrocker friends at SEOUL GARDEN..LOVE YA PEOPLE!!!

missing u..

2005-01-17T20:24:00.000+08:00

i'm lazy to update but one thing i wanna tell dat i miss u guys and take care. contact me at da same no. if u're free.

long-winded me

2004-11-30T13:14:00.000+08:00

after a long wait finally i get to update my blog. i'm at hwee jing's house actually borrowing her internet for awhile coz my internet can't be used at all. thanks jing jing. haha. so yah 23rd nov was our last paper and 24th marks the official end of my secondary school life. finally! phew! but gonna miss my friends though. been thru the ups and downs in my secondary school life. thanks to all my friends who have been there for me thru all the times. really appreciate them. yah! kinda sad. but will be seeing you again when the result is out. dats when most of us will be in tears of joy and sadness.

haha. now i'm reminiscing. off all da years sec 3 was the best year in my whole life. seriously. dats bcos i gain lots of friends and lost a few. dat year was also da year when i have my 1st boy and dat year was when i lost him. dat year was also da year i have my 1st best boy friend and lost him too. it's all kinda mixed. gain and lost. but i'm thankful it all happen eventhough it lasted for a while. all da memories i have with my friends will be tatooed in my heart till da end of time.

ok forget abt dat. hari raya dis year was like erm mendak. seriously. didn't mean to be rude or wat lah but i felt nothing abt it. only when i hear da takbir. lasted for a while only though. jln hari raya also like lazy. perhaps it was bcoz we are in da middle of da exams. i don't really have much to talk abt hari raya. oh yah on da first day i was so sleepy n tired dat i slept on the MRT. dats bcoz da day before i went to geylang and came back at around 5. slept for 3 hrs only. rest assured dat next year i won't be going on the eve of hari raya. it was tiring and packed and stuffy. a lot of people were there. haha. felt like sardines and we were like pushing each other. i was swearing in my heart all da time.

last week on da 24th i start working at my old place. taman siol "seoul garden". tiring. long time didn't work. but i still manage to remember most of the things to do. get to work with da two crazy people mark and steve. haha. they make me laugh with their jokes. joker! i've been feeling low since last fri but not going to tell why. yesterday when i worked, i short of $10 (i was da cashier). luckily my ma'am paid half for me. i felt like crying yesterday. though it's only $10 but it's still money. you work to get money not to pay back da money rite? haha. for get abt it.

i think dis is da longest entry i've ever done. haha. i dunno when i will be updating again. till then take care people and miss ya ;)

da emo side..

2004-10-31T13:20:00.000+08:00

right now i feel like an emotional storm was sweeping through.

it's hurting me.

dis morning mom told me what had happened yesterday at my cousin's place. there was external and internal conflict between a family and the other families that were present. wat mom told me really hurts me coz it involved my uncle. after mom told me i felt like crying but i hold on to the tears. right now i could feel hatred solidified into hard mass around my heart. i don't wanna talk abt it.

then yesterday my bro n i had a misunderstanding. he took my jokes seriously that he told me that i was being rude. it hurts me coz he never said dat to me before. i am being sensitive aren't i? haha. i cried yesterday and till now i didn't talk to him. it was because of third person dat we had a misunderstanding.

forget abt my hurtings. i just wanna wish all da best to all my friends who are going to sit the examination dis coming month. let's fight dis bitter battle together to taste the sweetness of victory. haha.

ALL THE BEST PEOPLE!!! =)

on da way

2004-10-30T11:31:00.000+08:00

ok exam is just another few more days. NERVOUS? SCARED?

OF COURSE!!! sheesh.

not really prepared u know. how i wish it's still far away but at the same time i wish it has ended. IMPOSSIBLE!

erm..i decided to go KL with my cousin on dec. if i don't go i dunno when will be the next opportunity will come. my parents won't be coming though. yah. guess i'm the odd one out. but who cares. i just wanna haf fun. but i WILL buy something for my parents of course.

feeling kinda up and down lately esp at nite. dunno why. missing someone? i don't think so. mayb my hormones aren't quite right lah ah. hehe.

okie i've been sitting in front of da comp for almost 3 1/2 hrs. gotta start studying like mad. what's the word my friends always say. oh! yah mugging rite peeps. haha. ape2lah.

well gotta go. peace =)

me n my story

2004-10-26T17:45:00.000+08:00

ok now i have da lil time to update my blog. haha. not many things happen la. erm..last friday was the last day of the poa course. phew! is it useful? 50% only i think. oh yah then we were told to pay $50 by cash coz $70 will be paid by da skool. stupid ass! suppose to pay by edusave but because of the closing account, we were not allowed to pay by edusave. not our fault what! then have to pay by cash. i don wanna ask my parents for money u know except my allowance. i'm just not use to asking for money from them. i'm used to pay by myself but now that i'm not working anymore i have to ask money from them. haiyo!
on dat last fri i went to geylang with my parents to break fast. not so many poeple. quite relaxing. bought the mario mariono bros (malay movie comedy) that mida n syimah talked abt. indeed it was very funny. watched it straight away when got home. haha. so funny the story! then on the sat mom and dad weren't at home. break fast with bro only. my sis worked night shift. anyway my bro cooked spaghetti for me. nice! yumyum! unfortunately got a sore-throat the next day. yah! but i still fast. i'm good huh. hehe. no lah. anyway just endure with the pain.
yesterday was the first time that my whole family get to eat together. normally is either my sis have to work night shift, return late or my brother working. yesterday was he best day to break fast. yesterday at skool sucks ok. no teachers except mr osgodby. urgh! if i know i won't come to skool. dat syimah n yana bullied me during da self-study. it was funny. watched america next top model 2. yeah! love mercedes n shandi!
today no skool! got da time all by myself for revision. hehe. love to study in a quiet environment. dis week is da last chance for super hard revision. what i hate though is my running nose. but it was minor. still can survive! i will survive! haha! crap! gotta to get ready for breaking fast. to all my muslim friends HAPPY BREAKING FAST and to the rest miz ya loads. tata!

haiz!

2004-10-20T20:45:00.000+08:00

had a great time yesterday with my sista. went to town and break fast at lucky plaza. tiring though. yah. anyway i've bought my shoe and bag for the hari raya. early huh? but have to coz exam is coming and i don't wanna buy last minute. oh yah. my sis and i went to diff shops and damn my wishlist just getting longer and longer. went to fox women at wisma atria and i saw dis red top that cost $23. then the sweaters. nice! urgh! gotta buy when i have the cash. then i saw dis puma sweater..phew. nice also. saw many malay people smoking and couples holding hands all that. didn't respect the month of fasting at all. doesn't matter if it's after break fast. and i hate guys who didn't fast without valid reason. turn me off!

today i feel kinda grouchy. easily irritated. haiz. but i just kept quiet though. didn't scold people lah. that kelvin keep beating me at class. haha. quite irritated but didn't scold him lah. i know he's joking. he's such a nice friend.

after breaking fast mom talk to me abt my cousin who is married asking me to go KL with them on December. anyway it's kinda long story and i don't really wanna talk abt me. i wanna go but there's few things that it's in my head. haiyo.

can't believe that exam is just 12 days away. so soon. not prepared ok. haiyo. my days in the school is also ending. won't be meeting the people i know that much it seems.

i think i betta stop before my emo and crappie mood is here. peace!

"Breakaway"

2004-10-17T13:14:00.000+08:00

Grew up in a small town

And when the rain would fall down

I just stared out my window

Dreaming of what could be

And if I'd end up happy

I would pray (I would pray)

Trying not to reach out

But when I'd try to speak out

Felt like no one could hear me

Wanted to belong here

But something felt so wrong here

So I pray (I would pray)

I could breakaway

[Chorus:]

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly

I'll do what it takes til' I touch the sky

I'll make a wish

Take a chance

Make a change

And breakaway

Out of the darkness and into the sun

But I won't forget all the ones that I loved

I'll take a risk

Take a chance

Make a change

And breakaway

Wanna feel the warm breeze

Sleep under a palm tree

Feel the rush of the ocean

Get onboard a fast train

Travel on a jet plane, far away (I will)

And breakaway

[Chorus]

Buildings with a hundred floors

Swinging around revolving doors

Maybe I don't know where they'll take me but

Gotta keep moving on, moving on

Fly away, breakaway

I'll spread my wings

And I'll learn how to fly

Though it's not easy to tell you goodbye

I gotta take a risk

Take a chance

Make a change

And breakaway

Out of the darkness and into the sun

But I won't forget the place I come from

I gotta take a risk

Take a chance

Make a change

And breakaway, breakaway, breakaway

quotes and poem

2004-10-17T11:38:00.000+08:00

What You Are To Me

I am a rose, you are my thorns,

clutching to me, protecting me.

I am the sun, you are my rays,

helping me to shine and to be all that I can.

I am a lake, you are my water,

filling me with ideas, dreams, and hopes for the future.

I am a tree, you are my leaves,

sharing who and what I am

and becoming an important part of my life.

I am a heart, you are my beat,

beating rhythmically to my happiness,

my fear, my sadness, my excitement.

I am me and you are with me,

to share all that I am,

to share life, love, and happiness

Always.

- Bernice Ellrick -

Love comforteth like sunshine after rain.

- William Shakespeare -

No sooner met but they looked;

No sooner looked but they loved;

No sooner loved but they sighed;

No sooner sighed but they asked one another the reason;

No sooner knew the reason but they sought the remedy.

- William Shakespeare -

The past cannot be changed,

the future is still in your power.

- Hugh White -

Don't let today's disappointments

cast a shadow on tomorrow's dreams.

- Unknown -

Love is like the wind,

you can't touch it,

but yo can feel it.

-from the movie "A Walk To Remember"-

the time of the year and...

2004-10-15T09:08:00.000+08:00

HAPPY FASTING MONTH to all my muslim friends no matter where you are =) it's dat time of the year again to test our patience and perseverance. jgn puasa yok yok ah. hehe. i love da atmosphere of the fasting mth. like peace. hehe. take care of urself okie. =) todai is the first day of fasting. i just hope that i won't go to the kitchen and open the fridge. haha. nah. just kiddin. you'll get used to the atmosphere.

exam is in like two weeks time also. argh!! help!! i won't be updating my blog for a while so yah.stupid lah.there's so many things i haven't revise yet. haiyo! i got nothing much to say actually. betta stop now. bye!

forgive...

2004-10-10T17:50:00.000+08:00

went out with momma today to geylang. ok not really my favourite place but just wanna spend the time with my momma. she bought a pair of tops for me. yah. quit nice lah. then went to eat lunch. the weather was very hot. sheesh. i was pissed twice coz people were pushing as though they will never get out of there again and bcoz my earphone spoilt. anyway after that waited for dad at lot one. before that met people i know. didn't go to their place but just wave hand. dad bought for me the earphone so that made my first crave on the wishlist to be fulfilled.

yesterday went to jurong point with momma. not really in da mood yesterday so yah i have this sour face. hate to had it but i can't help it. really not in da mood. i was pissed abt...i don't wanna talk abt it. it's over anyway. in the evening i went to my cousin place [not close to him] for kenduri. i wasn't really into it lah. i didn't want to go. momma didn't force me to go either but what would they said if their own cousin didn't go to their place. so i just tagged along with my parents. i still feel bad for showing the sour face to mom. haiz.

life is miserable when things go wrong but it's sweet when the one that you love is beside you. =)

what the...

2004-10-08T22:25:00.000+08:00

ok i found out that dis sun's outing to kota tinggi is cancelled. disappointing lor coz i was looking forward to it but now it's over. haiz. cheh like i broke up with someone like dat ah. haha. now i dunno wat i'm going to do for my weekend. *thinking* hmm. anyway that can worry later la ah. haha. mayb asking my momma out to somewhere. yeah. since i'm broke mayb she can buy for me clothes or something. haha. how bad i am. nah! juz wanna go out with her. besides she doesn't have anything to do anyway.

i didn't watch s'pore idol result today. anyway found out from ana that david yeo was voted out. stupid voters! dunno how to vote ah?!!! don't vote lah!!! he is much better than jerry ok. wah lau. use ur barin lah use ur brain! oh my gawd! vote on real and pure talent pleeease. phew! all i know is that he isn't good at all. zit! none! zero! kosong! botak! urgh!

didn't watch s'pore idol coz went to nite studies. yah. it was ok lah. my ng was there. at least i can clarify things which i dunno. at first it was quiet but then the noise level getting louder. pissed me off. what the heck! okie today went pizza hut coz cikgu maimoon treat ue. yum yum. delicious. yah. finger lickin good!

time to bed lah ah before i continue my crap. haha. tata!

scary ah

2004-10-07T19:55:00.000+08:00

didn't go to skool today. yesterday at 1 am almost faint in the toilet. sheesh. that wat scary. my body was cold, my lips turned white and my face turned pale. i quickly went out of the toilet and knocked my mother's door. i hugged her. i felt as if i was abt to.....you know. anyway my mom wanted me to sleep in her room and so i did. i went to the clinic and the doctor said my blood pressure is low. gave me a month supply of medicine to revive my blood pressure. my mom sure nagged abt it. she don't let me eat this and that and made sure i have my medicine. but i love her loads. haha.

i don't really know what to write lah. okie i think i betta stop here lah ah. take care ok. have an early nite!

summary of the week

2004-10-02T22:57:00.000+08:00

today: i have been spending the time changing my blog skin so i'm quite satisfied with dis skin which is why i decided to use it. anyway today i didn't do much. just went out to my future cousin-in-law's house for kenduri. yah. in the morning i just play around with my niece and nephew. my lil niece had a fever but she was soon recovered because of the concern by so many people. she has big appetite. i fed her chicken and grapes. she even drank syrup. i like watching her because she's so cute. haha.

tuesday: graduation day just over. yah. still can remember that day. it was soooo boring. the speaker had almost an hour of speech which didn't like even related to graduation day. haiz. for an hour he talked abt being a lawyer and the court stuff. he was so in love with himself that he didn't realise the boredom that he brought to the audience. haiz. i love the reception coz of the food though. haha.

wed: got maths and science paper back. haiyo did so badly for my maths but i have no regrets coz i didn't study for it. it was a last minute thing. yah. anyway have to wait till 2.30 pm to get maths result paper back. lessons finish at 1.10 but have to wait an hour and 20 mins. anyway have to wait for them to get amaths paper 1st. have to wait and wait. gosh!

thurs: that kevin chong didn't come to skool again so didn't get the poa paper. he is always like that. but i know i'm to fail anyway so i don't care abt that. haha. for physics mr sim ming hoe came late so had a few free periods. after assembly we have checkings of uniform. sucks man. luckily there's nothing wrong abt my outfit. that mr ng even wearing sleese shoes he thought that was a sports shoe.

fri: didn't do much thing lah. just that my cousin, his wife and their children sleep at my house. again spend the time in front of the comp. looking for blog skin. watched s'pore idol. i can't believe jessea and beverly out instead of jerry. jerry isn't good. those who vote don't know how to vote i think. anyway even if there's a winner of s'pore idol, he/she couldn't go far because not many people support the local industry. unless the winner goes abroad. yah. i don't have further comment abt that. i just thought s'poreans have made the wrong decision that's all.

yah that's how i spent the week. here's a count down O LEVEL IS IN A MONTH TIME!!!!!!ARGH!!!

helpless

2004-09-27T21:59:00.000+08:00

today isn't a good day to start with. still sleepy due to the lack of sleep and the tiring work yesterday. just when i thought that today will be coming home early (bcoz of the new timetable) to have my nap, my hope shattered. it's bcoz of the stupid graduation prize presentation rehearsal. have to wait an hour an a half for it to start. sheesh!!! i thought it's just briefing and all that and it'll take abt an hour or an hour but it took almost 2 hrs and 40 mins for it to end. oh my gawd!!! i didn't expect it's full rehearsal. and then there's mrs ee who makes a fuss almost everything. i pity with the mcs who is hosting for the 1st time and they got scolding from mrs ee.
then have to sit there to watch them dance and sing. it was boring. the funny thing was tmr is graduation day but we still have to back to school. farni ah. hehe. sian ah
anyway now i'm watching friends. actually i'm waiting for america's next top model but since there's repeat telecast of friends i just watch it lah. the show is funny ah esp phoebe and joey. haha.
i've been thinking there's so many things i want to buy but i don't have the money. haiz. i want to buy belt, t-shirts, jeans etc. there's so many of them!! i owe my bro 20 bucks and i still have to save up for the comin hp bill. argh!! i wish exam ends soon so that i can start work. even so, i'll only get my pay the end of dec. now have to focus on exams 1st. haaaaaaaaa.
i think i stop now. i can't help it but to watch friends. gtg. chiao!

REMEMBER ME THIS WAY

2004-09-27T20:12:00.000+08:00

Every now and then we find a special friend

who never lets us down

who understands it all reaches out each time we fall

you're the best friend that i've found

I know you can't stay a part of you will never ever go away

your heart will stay

I'll make a wish for you and hope it will come true

if life will just be kind to such a gentle mind

if you lose your way think back on yesturday

remember me this way

I don't need eyes to see the love you bring to me

no matter where I go and I know that you'll be there

forever more a part of me and everywhere

I'll always care

I'll make a wish for you and hope it will come true

if life will just be kind to such a gentle mind

and if you lose your way think back on yesturday

remember me this way

and I'll be right behind your shoulder watching you

I'll be standing by your side all you do

and I won't ever leave as long as you believe

you just believe

I'll make a wish for you and hope it will come true

if life will just be kind to such a gentle mind

and if you lose your way think back on yesterday

remember me this way

oh, this way

all time favourite song from movie soundtrack Casper the Movie

MAMA MIA!

2004-09-25T23:04:00.000+08:00

ok THUMBS UP for mamma-mia. it was COOL. SUPER COOL ok. haha. had a great laugh n the singing was awesome. *singing* loving you loving me, mama mia here we go again mama how can i resist you. haha. it was worth the price of the tickets. it was the best show ever besides than THE WOMAN IN BLACK! i LOVE it! i still can't get over the show. feel like watching it again but too bad lah can't use edusave anymore. haha. the show is sweet. *awww*.

everybody's looking good dressing up. haha. the girls looked GORGEOUS. JAMBU BABES!!! yah. everybody looked good. YOU GO GIRLS!!! haha.

after mamma-mia went to eat at Long John Silver. almost lost my appetite when i saw dis man with his hairy armpit. haha. i'm so bad. i didn't mean to but he raise his hands and can see his hairy armpit u know. phew.

went home and around twenty minutes later my aunt, uncle, cousin and his wife came to my house. tmr is the kenduri at my house. kinda tired. have to wake up early tmr to help my mom. do i have a choice? NO!!! anyway watched incredible tales. then they talked about the good old days n my dad encountered with "the ghost".

i think i'm turning in now. i'm sleepy. nitez yah. take care! mama mia!

juz...another thursday

2004-09-23T20:20:00.000+08:00

i'm watching singapore idol right now. well, it's the unsung heroes. the malay girl and the malay guy are good. the malay girl's voice is much better than those who qualified in the 12. my gawd. some are worse. enough abt singapore idol. finally OC is back today! haha. ok enough abt the shows. haha.

ok, today we got the results back. english and social studies. overall i passed my eng. there's improvement in it. from C6 to B4. so yah. thankful for that. for my social studies i improved by 2 marks. 28/50. but i dunno abt my lit. oh yah one more it's bio practical. there's improvement also. haha. i hope that the rest of te result is good and i hope i'll do much better for my Os. i'm bragging. haha. anyway we didn't do much in skool xcept during eng lesson have to do corrections.

i don't feel like going to the mamma-mia thing. like not in da mood. haish. but i've paid $60+ for it so it'll be a waste not to go even though i used my edusave to pay for it. hafta go. take care!

on my own...

2004-09-22T21:13:00.000+08:00

well what can i say. today is so shitty day. went to bugis n city hall all by myself. someone volunteered to go with me today but in the end that person didn't. i can survive on my own ok. i don't need that person. i won't die going anywhere alone. I WON'T! what the hell. i don't need you! haiz. anyway i went to check out clothes but there's nothing that attracts me. most probably i'll be wearing my old clothes. no choice. then perhaps i'll buy a necklace or sumthin. what the hell. instead of buying new clothes i use that money to buy something else huh. the mamma-mia thing will only be like 2-3 hrs then i have to go home to help my mom for sunday's kenduri.
after going to bugis n city hall, went to watch DODGEBALL with my bro n his girl. the show quite funny. haha. u hafta watch it.
i'll stop here for now. not in da mood yah. take care =)

refresh

2004-09-21T21:59:00.000+08:00

here i go updating my blog. haha. revamp my blog dis afternoon. quite tiring. now i know adha's hardwork in doing my blog before it was born. hehe. thanks to zara too for giving me skins for my blog to choose. mayb i would still had a hard time choosing. however, i lost the code for my tag board and have to trouble adha again to make it. haha. sori yah! my blog is black and white. i hope it soesn't look that dull. anyway do give me ur opinions. i'm learning to make my blog. still got a lot to learn.
i have quite a lot to tell. let me fefresh my memory. went to bbq on sept 11. it was fun. really had a great time. met my brother's girlfriend for the 1st time. quite awkward but i think it's ok.
prelim just ended. i screwed up many papers for this prelim. really screwed. not only i did a lst minute study but i think i did worse. haha. maths, phy n poa papers really sucks. the rest i think is 50/50. see how it goes on when get the result back.
last sun met my cousin bro. he looks funny with his bald head. he looks dark too. bald+dark=ermmm...lighter version of bangla. hehe. we talked abt many things and he treat me at macdonalds n coffee bean. anyway he is more matured now but still as crazy as ever.
dis weekend is going to be a busy weekend for me. on sat going to mamma-mia. gosh still dunno what to wear. shit! having cash problems also but i think i can handle that. if not i have no choice but to wear my old clothes. dis sun going to have kenduri at my house. kenduri arwah. since fastinf is approaching it's time to have kenduri. yah. what i like is that families will be gathering at my house. it's going to be chaotic. haha.

out! out! out!

2004-09-09T23:47:00.000+08:00

juz came back from west coast eating centre with my cousin, his wife and my parents. i didn't eat much though coz don't have the appetite to eat. actually because i'm scared that i put on weight. haha. yah. haiz. anyway i went out with yana n ika [yana's small sis] today. went to the library then walk around at causeway point. after that i went to westmall alone. i walked around, looking at some stuffs. went to TOM AND STEPHANIE [ghee i hope i spelt that out right] to buy my mirage perfume. too bad the pink one not available so i bought the blue one instead. yeah.
yesterday was my mom's birthday. i kind of frustrated at myself coz i wasn't in my best mood yesterday so basically i was irritated at the slightest thing. anyway we went to eat but before that me n my sis went to look for the best present for my mom. it has been a long time i didn't went out with my sis. kind of miss the old times where me n my sis went out every week. but now she's too busy with her work. haiz. there's nothing that i can do.
on tuesday went out with yana, adhana, cindy, pat, belinda n pat's small brother. we went to watch movie. THE CINDERELLA STORY. hehe. at first we planned to watch the 2.40 show but when we wot there the tickets were selling fast and by the time it's our turned to by the tickets it was sold out so we bought the 5.05 show. not too bad. anyway the show is funny and sweet. enjoyed that very much. thanks to cindy for inviting me to come along with her. haha. CINDY IS MY LAO GONG SO DON'T SNATCH HER AWAY FROM ME!!! haha. just kidding. i'm not a les ok. hehe. cindy is one of my very good friend. anyway the show is funny so i had a good laugh on that day. =)
well, tomorrow is school day again. so is sat. going to BBQ with my family dis sat. can't believe that it's already thurs. time flies real quick huh. time for me to turn in. i wish: may tomorrow be a better day than today n yesterday. hehe. =)

iCe-CreAm TeSt

2004-09-07T10:57:00.000+08:00

You are a sensitive person and often find yourself daydreaming about your past and future. You are quite conservative and the values that your parents and teachers instilled in you still play an important part in your decision making.

You're very careful and circumspect in all matters but you won't face any problems until they actually happen. Also you're a kind and sensitive person.

You are vigorous yet gentle. You appear to be mysterious to those who don't know you very well because you don't often reveal your feelings. You like to socialize and are popular among your peers.

You are logical, smart and inventive. Sometimes you are too cold and selfish.

*taken from ice-cream test that my friend gave me through email...i don't think i'm cold n selffish though..hehe

holiday in the house

2004-09-05T20:10:00.000+08:00

OLLA! feeling kind of tired right now coz juz came back from boon lay where my aunt cooks for a wedding. yah. i did help a bit. i help to eat. haha. no lah. i helped my cousin to look after her child. she's getting active and naughty. my gawd. NUR IFRA. yah. dats her name. anyway still have my tummy cramp. uncomfortable though. haiz but i think i'm ok. today is the last day that my mom n dad will be helping my aunt. i mean there's no more wedding. my aunt said there will be on december. anyway 1 week holiday is on but i can't start to slack. have to do thorough revision. i hope my action will be carry out instead of words only. haha. i'm going to watch movie on tuesday. cinderella story. haha. then on thursday mayb will be going to sentosa with my bro, his girlfriend and his girlfriend's cousin i think. not confirm yet tho. on the sat will be going to bbq with my family. finally. has been a long time we do not have family outing. my uncles, aunts and cousins will be there. yeah! hehe. me n yana will be going out one of the days. just hang out. i hope not to have one week holiday disaster. haha. chiaoz!

NoThiiiiin

2004-09-05T01:10:00.000+08:00

i'm bored since dis afternoon. dis mornin i went breakfast with my mom at jp. after dat i met yana straight away to buy present at causeway point. we walked till my leg is aching. haha. went home right after dat. since then, i've been slacking at home all day. watching tv. i cooked spaghetti for myself coz my mom didn't cook.
anyway just chat with ZARA. it's nice chatting with her abt some things that we haven't done for quite a long time. we were in the same kindergarten. seriously i didn't know that we were in the same kindergarten till she told me when we were in sec 1. i quickly looked at the pic straight away when she told me. haha
i think i have to go now. my stomach cramp has been killing and annoying me all day afternoon. gtg.

soooooooo best!!!

2004-09-04T15:28:00.000+08:00

yestersay was THE BEST DAY ever. for the first time we got 45 mins PE and yesterday was the FIRST time that i felt 5B as a class. at first we played badminton in the hall but got chased out because other class wants to play also. we were angry coz playing badminton was the best game ever. then we played volleyball. it's funny coz none of us knows how to play volleyball. it was silly. we kept serving the ball turn by turn. bored by the game we played basketball. this was the best coz i love to see ZHONG WEI'S expression. it was SO FUNNY. his face was so stressed out when he was running with the ball. haha.
yesterday in the evening i went to my uncle's house to see his new born son. his name is MUHD HAIMI. he is so small and reddish. not to mention big eyes too. haha. i love babies but scared to hold them coz i might hurt the baby accidentally. furthermore babies are so fragile. the risk of them getting hurt is high so scary to hold them.
sooo yeah that was yesterday. haha.

i Am An OrAnGe TiGeR!!!

2004-08-27T20:21:00.000+08:00

noor ismah bte hosni January/08/1987 Female

You are Orange Tiger who tend to be cheerful, carefree, pure and gentle sort of person.
You possess a relaxed atmosphere, and although you seem a proud person, you are actually friendly and open-hearted.
You are not cautious towards people you meet for the first time, and be able to act openly to men as well.
You possess extremely honest character, and never doubt others.
You are too ready to believe others, and are not terribly good at bargaining and tactics.
Your heart is too pure for that sort of things.
Your instinct and observing power is weak.
But you are intelligent enough to see things objectively.
Theory is very important for you, and therefore you are not good at fast action.
You are broad-minded person, and are well trusted by people.
You get too busy looking after the others, and may loose yourself.
You go about thing in your own pace, and you possess strong volunteering spirit.
But if something is unreasonable, you are very obstinate not to acknowledge it.
You are a person with strong sense of justice.
You can be optimistic towards life, and believe everything will settle just fine.
You like men who are well-dressed and smart, modern and educated.
After getting married you will be a caring wife, and tend to be busy going about doing lots of things.

i'm not proud though...haha...

to find out abt urself check it out at http://noracom.net/eng/fortune/color_cheki2.php

SLACKING!!!

2004-08-26T18:37:00.000+08:00

EXAM COMING!!! AAAAARGH!!! hehe. what only ismah. ghee i'm bored. suppose to go jogging with hwee jing but she got lotsa tuition hwk. haha. me jogging. sound funny huh? kinda worried when people keep telling me i put on weight yah yah yah. makes my ear wanna explode. me n hwee jing plan to jog everyday except wkends lah. i'm trying to lose some weight. kinda regret joining netball. the tough training makes my muscles turn to FATS. haha. now i have flabby n big arms. or maybe i inherit it from my mom. nah. it's juz my laziness. i'm blaming people for my own laziness. I LOVE FOOD!!! what can i say. or mayb my bone is big. haha. STOP IT ISMAH!!!
dis wkend going the wedding place where my mom is cooking. boleh CUCI MATA [looking at cute guys]. haha. juz looking lah. i'm dead if i were to flirt in front of my mom. no harm right juz looking at them???
going to BBQ with my family on the 11th september. eh! don't be mistaken. i'm not celebrating the incident of the twin tower but to celebrate my mom's birthday lah which falls on 8th sept. anyway i dunno what to but for my mom. instead of studying, i'm slacking. haha.
speakin of which i didn't come to skool on monday n missed taking the last class photo. damn! the next day mida told me they took photos. stupid of me! haiz. no more class photo taking.
anyway gtg...take care

She Will Be Loved

2004-08-22T21:04:00.000+08:00

Beauty queen of only eighteen
She had some trouble with herself
He was always there to help her
She always belonged to someone else
I drove for miles and miles
And wound up at your door
I've had you so many times but somehow
I want more I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
She will be loved
Tap on my window knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful
I know I tend to get so insecure
It doesn't matter anymore
It's not always rainbows and butterflies
It's compromise that moves us along
My heart is full and my door's always open
You can come anytime you want
I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
She will be loved
I know where you hide
Alone in your car
Know all of the things that make you who you are
I know that goodbye means nothing at all
Comes back and begs me to catch her every time she falls
Tap on my window knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful
I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
[in the background]
Please don't try so hard to say goodbye
Please don't try so hard to say goodbye
Yeah[softly]I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Try so hard to say goodbye

Love the lyrics...love the song...

GiViNg a HeLpIng HaNd

2004-08-22T20:08:00.000+08:00

juz came back from wedding place where my aunt cook. it's been a long time i didn't go and help. today iwent but came late. i did help. it was fun, tiring and funny. at around 4+ there's this one aunty. she came to the kitchen keep askin abt the food packing. wah lau irritating ah. she like arrogant ah. cheh! greedy!!! had a good laugh with my mom and my aunt. hehe. it was funny.
yesterday night my auncle brought me and my cousin (his son) to eat at al-ameen. 2 plates of chicken rice took so long to be served. haha.
so much for the fun. i haven't do my homework. argh! the never ending homework. i don't know what to write abt describing places. describing people is easier than describing places. haiz.

pure emptiness

2004-08-21T00:46:00.000+08:00

currently my life sucks big time. really sucks. so many things to do yet so little time. haha. excuses huh. anyway dis past few days kinda like a piece of shit. first of all can't believe that prelim is starting very soon. eng paper and practical is next week. 17th aug was my oral. i don't know how i did but i think i did ok. i don't know. for the last two days, my life is pure empty. memories came back and it sucks. why do they have to come back. damn! i have tried many ways to get over it but it just won't. u don't know what i am talking about aren't you. haha. never mind. i can't tell you but this is what i am feeling. just pure emptiness. short moments yet so many memories. someone tried to replace *someone* but it'll never be the same. i don't know whether it's me or what. argh! *get over it ismah* damn!
each day school is getting boring. i can go sicko. haha. that's the word i have been using. -sicko-
again in school felt empty too. though many people around me but it felt nothing. talking crap. haiz.
anyway teachers day celebration is comin. what the heck. i don't care about them. i just hope school is over soon. but i can't wait for the concert. the people who is going to perform of course. haha. tomorrow is practical remedial. crap!!! i hate practical. shessh. better get some sleep before my crap mood is getting worse. haha.

juz another typical day

2004-08-16T21:33:00.000+08:00

just came back home. i went out with my cousin just now. we went to holland village coffee bean where his girlfriend work. drink a lot that my stomach is about to burst now. haha. anyway today is the last day that me and my cousin hanging out together coz this wed he'll be at tekong. gonna miss him but i can't wait to see him botak. anak bulan. hehe. we talk about lots of stuff. i meet his girl. it's been long time i meet her.
well, skool is kinda boring nowadays. the pressure is getting high though. haiz. i wish it's over soon. tomorrow is the o level oral. sucks!
i don't really know what to say now. haha. basically my life sucks. nah! juz jokin.

unstable

2004-08-15T22:22:00.000+08:00

i'm sleepy but i can't sleep. slept at 4+ yesterday and now my head is spinning. studied my 2nd worse sub which is physics, it sucks but gotta endure. haiz. how i wish it's over soon. btw i got A2 for malay. can't believe it but alhamdulillah i got it. i thought after getting distinction i don't have any more worries but i was told that those who got A2 are encourage to retake to get A1. of course we weren't force to do it but have to make decision. after long thinking and discussion with my parents, i decided not to retake. it's not that i am proud and complacent that i got a distinction or because my parents have to pay for it again, but because i have to concentrate on the weaker subjects. this is the opportunity for me to catch up.
anyway went to my cousin house for doa slamat. he'll be going to serve the nation soon. can't wait to see him bald. *cheeky smile* haha. i'll be missing him though. he is my closest cousin. he wants me study hard and go to poly. that's what i want too. insya allah i will do my best. gotta get back to my physics. shit! tomorrow there's common test. ARGH! sucks man. nitez!

FaLL To PiEcEs

2004-08-15T16:06:00.000+08:00

I looked away

Then I look back at you

You try to say

The things that you can't undo

If I had my way

I'd never get over you

Today's the day

I pray that we make it through

Make it through the fall

Make it through it all

[Chorus:]

And I don't wanna fall to pieces

I just want to sit and stare at you

I don't want to talk about it

And I don't want a conversation

I just want to cry in front of you

I don't want to talk about it

Cuz I'm in Love With you

You're the only one,

I'd be with till the end

When I come undone

You bring me back again

Back under the stars

Back into your arms

[Chorus]

Wanna know who you are

Wanna know where to start

I wanna know what this means

Wanna know how you feel

Wanna know what is real

I wanna know everything, everything

[Chorus without last line]

[Chorus]

I'm in love with you

Cuz i'm in love with you

I'm in love with you

*Avril Lavigne's song*

Worries

2004-08-11T00:53:00.000+08:00

it's already 12.52 am but i still can't get to sleep. yeah i have worries in my head right now. major worry is EXAM. IT SUCKS!!! damn. worse of all, gce o malay result is coming soon. it's abt 2 more wks i guess and oral is next wk. prelim is ard the corner but in my head all i want is to ENJOY ENJOY ENJOY. what am i thinking. i keep delaying things i have to do. there's not much time left but i am still slacking. what the hell. prelim is next month but i am going to chalet during the one week holiday. haiz. i dunno whether i can make it or not. i maybe paying attention in skool, attending lessons but the things being thought doesn't seems to be in my head. i realised that din who rarely goes to school know more things than i am. gosh! i dunno what to do now. i don't expect a miracle coz there's no such thing unless i work hard. i just don't want to dissapppoint my parents that's all. also, i want to prove to my sister that i can make it. i have accepted her challenge but now i don't know whether i can make it or not. i am exaggerating right??? haha.. i'm talking crap early in the morning but at least i feel much better now. haha. should i say GOOD NIGHT or GOOD MORNING??? argh both also can lah. ciaos.

When We Risk It All

2004-08-10T16:26:00.000+08:00

We can't blame others when love dwindles away,

For we know from the start it never promised to stay.

It's just one of those things where the stakes are high,

And sometimes it's forever, and sometimes it's goodbye.

When you love the right way you never lose,

No matter what path life may force you to choose.

you may end up with tears or a broken heart,

but you knew what you signed up from the start.

You can only give what you've got to give,

And if tha't not enough, then you must continue to live.

Life will go on and broken heart will heal,

You must continue on your quest, for that's the deal.

Throw your heart into life and never stall,

For the greatest risk is to risk nothing at all.

You see, love is the only thing that we know,

That can be divided and divided but continue to grow.

And life isn't long enough to lock away our heart,

Just because life may have forced two people apart.

You will continue to love and continue to lose,

We will continue to pick and continue to choose.

And then one day we will just risk it all,

Take the chains off our hearts and dismantle the wall.

The last time we love will be the forever,

And never again will our hearts be forced to sever.

We'll never have doubts that it'll go away,

Because this time, it'll be here to stay.

But until then we must endure all the pain,

For we only see sunshine if we can wait through the rain.

boredom

2004-08-09T22:16:00.000+08:00

well, i'm feeling bored right now. i'm watching FRIENDS. very funny. haha. didn't do much today. only watching tv the whole day. see how bad i am. i want to pass my exam but didn't study. all i did was slack the whole day. i haven't even do my homework. gosh! besides watching tv, i joke with my cousin's children. they slept at my house yesterday but i didn't realise that. i realised when i woke up at abt 4+ because someone took my fav pillow. it took me some time to get back to sleep. sheesh! i watched singapore idol just now. my gawd! some were good though. some even can't sing. the funny guys are the one singing LEMON TREE and the one who sing without the voice. but hey i admire their courage to "sing" in front of the tv. some even humilliate themself in front of the tv. still, i found that funny and courageous. haha. this show open my eyes that singaporean have the courage and some have the talent. i hope singapore have it's own idol on their own. fortunately tomorrow is a school holiday. still have the time to do my homework. i have to go but before i go HAPPY 39th NATIONAL DAY SINGAPORE!!!

missing you

2004-08-09T22:08:00.000+08:00

Here I am missin you

I hope you feel the same way too

Every night I think about our memories together

And the promises you made to me

That no matter what we'll always be

together till the end of time

You left me when I need you

leaving me right here crying

To forget you that's what I'm trying

But it seems that I can't let you go

Every night I'm missing you so

That words can't describe how I feel

Coz what I feel is for real

I'm sorry that I have to ignore you

but I just want to let you know

Though I may not show that I don't care

but in my heart

Our memories are always there

A year past since you've gone

without by my sideI feel that it's wrong

You are the first in my heart

That made me don't want us to be apart

Here I am always to stay

Hoping you'll return to be with me some day

Now i just want to let you know

How much I am missing you so...

long entry

2004-08-08T21:31:00.000+08:00

less than 3 more mths n it's all abt exams exams exams.damn.hate it.well that's reality.face it.gosh!there's certain things in life that we cannot run away n even if we did, it will turn back for you to face it again.anyway here are the things that i did...
WED: i still cannot forget what happened to me on the wednesday.i find it shocking.it's not something bad but something strange.after i got back from school i headed to the SUNSHINE to buy something.i bought PEEL FRESH drink.before i want to pay the drink i asked the man to go 1st coz i was taking out the coins from my bag.when the man is about to finish paying his stuff, he told the cashier to scan my drink too.i was shock n said it's ok, i'll pay it but the man insist.outside i thanked him again but the man said it's ok.he paid it for me because i let him to pay 1st.he is a friendly man and he meant no harm.
THURS: i didn't go to school coz i have a tummy ache. mida, syima, ana n yana came to my house after school to take the cooler and the radio. they made a lot of noise. well, that's my friends. hehe. they lent a lot of VCDs.
FRI: national days at skool quite boring but it end early. then i went home to cook the noodles. after that i vacuum the house. met adhana at 2.50 at her house. syimah's father picked us up at ard 3.30. the funny thing was adhana and i forgot the most important thing ever which was the chicken. poor syimah's father. we have to turned back. but it was funny. of all the things we forgot the chicken. at the bbq, aisha, eisha n nana said i'm quiet but i don't think i am. i was eating and talking. hehe. there's nothing wrong with me. ride the bicycle with syima. it's been a long time i ride a bicycle. felt weird at first but i got hang on to it. it was fun and tiring. we came home quite late. i reached home almost 1. mom n dad wasn't happy about it. mom didn't talk to me but my bro said just keep quiet if my mom said anything. my bro picked me up at bt panjang int.
SAT: because mom is angry with me she wake me up early in the morning so that i can help her. in order to relief her, i did what she told me to do. i don't have any choice. i tried to explain to her but it's no use. it was partially my fault too. her anger with me doesn't last long though. in the afternoon i went to my cousin house because it's his daughter and son birthday party.
SUN: stay home all day. got a diarrhoe coz i ate too much papayas the previous day. now my stomach hurts like hell. hehe. hopefully tomorrow is a better day. anyway HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE. haha. crap. chao. peace.

Pissed+Emo

2004-08-02T20:46:00.000+08:00

what a nice day to sleep with the kind of weather...y i am suddenly talkin abt the weather...i'm sleeeeeepyyyyy...my afternoon nap ain't enuf...haha...anyway feelin kind of f*** up coz not many people going to turn up for the pit...what the hell...adha took the trouble to organise the gathering but many people gave the stupid crappy excuse like there are more malay people, exam is comin and other stupid crap...or worst still bcoz they have to pay...when no one organise it many people ask for it and when someone has organise it what the give are EXCUSES EXCUSES EXCUSES!!!i don't care anymore...all i know i try to have fun with the people turning up...
today no PE...boring...cannot play badminton... =(
tomorrow is my father's birthday...i've bought for him present...i hope he likes it...i love him loads...he worked hard for the family and protected me when i need it...for that i'm thankful... he has been patient and tolerance towards my siblings' attitudes...for that i love him...i don't know what i'm going to do without him...worse of all without his laughter and his jokes...he may not read this but still i wish him HAPPY BIRTHDAY and I LOVE YOU DAD!!! ok i'm getting emotional...

NeW cOmEr

2004-07-28T15:30:00.000+08:00

haha...my first time...finally get a blog...thanx to my dear friend adha...maceh eh...rajin kau...i can't sponsor you the clown costume ah tapi next wk kita have fun abis2 ah okie...hehe...tak sabar aku...skool today cam biasa jugak... nothing much happen la...there's no bio lesson =(... yazid n thaha make joke today until cikgu maimoon laugh also...finally i get to eat cempedak today...it's the same family as the jackfruit...i dunno what it is call...the fruit my brother's girlfriend's father gave...i'm glad that my brother is happy with his girlfriend...he deserve a loving girlfriend...hehe...my stomach is full...argh!! GOOD NIGHT MY LOVELY PEOPLE!!!